In my third year of high school, my father became more strict with me. In order for me to be admitted to a key university, he and his mother discussed hiring a full-time tutor for me, who not only took charge of my studies, but also regularly reported to him on my thoughts, communication, and places of entry and exit, indicating that he was here to supervise me.
This makes me very disgusted. I argue with my father, reason, cry and shout to run away from home, but we cannot let him change his decision. Every day after school, full-time tutoring is always waiting at the entrance of the school. I can no longer sing karaoke, go to bars, or meet netizens with my classmates. This kind of life is like hell, and I endure it day by day, but I don't know when it will come to an end.
My classmate Shirley helped me come up with an idea, saying that since I couldn't change my father's mind, I had to start with full-time tutoring. The method is very simple, try to make him retreat and leave on his own. Her words moved me. The full-time tutor Du Guang hired by his father is a college student who has not achieved much after graduation, with a simple and honest appearance.
I understand my father and if I could hire him, it must have been carefully investigated and evaluated. I'm afraid I can't hide it from my father by using methods such as planting property. At that time, there was a movie called "Seduction" that was becoming popular online. Shirley didn't even think about it, so she casually said, "Then you can Seduction him. Find a DV player and shoot it for your father to watch. If your father doesn't drive him away, that's a wonder in the world.
For some reason, Shirley's words made both me and her feel a little excited. At that age, what I most wanted to try was something novel and exciting. She and I have made detailed and meticulous arrangements for full-time tutoring for 'seduction', as if on a mysterious mission. Our plan is to get drunk with full-time tutoring and then pretend to be disrespectful to me.
I found a father on a business trip, while my mother was on duty on weekends. Under the pretext of doing well in the small exam, I held Du Guang and insisted that he celebrate with me. I drink drinks and he drinks beer. I secretly pour Baijiu into his beer glass. After a few drinks, he is obviously dizzy.
I helped him into my bedroom, threw him on the sofa, adjusted the DV machine, then lay down under him, ripped off my coat, put his head on my left shoulder, and then made a panic struggle. This shot was taken well, according to my original plan, I would jump up and run out to open the door, rush into the living room and cry loudly to call my father.
But before I could get out of him, something unexpected happened. It's alcohol that works. Du Guang's head leaned against my exposed left shoulder, and as soon as his lips touched my skin, his body quickly reacted. He blurred his eyes and reached out to press my arm tightly. My shirt had already been torn open by myself, and he freely acted on my chest and lower abdomen.
I shouted, but the sound was immediately blocked by his mouth full of alcohol, and his hand began to descend and destroy me. I still feel a bit scared when I remember that scene. Why did Du Guang, who looked innocent and honest, become such a beast? I began to regret the deliberate attempt to seduce him, but now it seems too late.
After the incident, I dare not tell anyone, especially my father. I destroyed the DV and was even more afraid of Du Guang talking nonsense in front of my father. I am even more eager than before for him to disappear in front of me. I played truant, gave up exams, and blamed him for everything. In the end, my father dismissed him without a word of defense.
I failed to enter a key university and only attended an ordinary college. Due to the impact of this incident, I didn't have a boyfriend until two years after working due to psychological barriers. After several twists and turns, I finally waited for my own spring - Zhao.
Although Zhao doesn't earn much money, he takes great care of me. Only by being with him can my heart be secure and stable. I fell in love with him, and after intimate contact with him, the haze left by Du Guang no longer occupied my heart, but in exchange for another emotion, I regret not giving my virginity to the person I love the most.
I even regret it and wonder why I was so ignorant when I was young. If time could turn back and everything could start over again, I would never do those ridiculous and outrageous things that now seem ridiculous and irreparable. And now, I want to double cherish my fate with Zhao and live a good life with him wholeheartedly!
(Intern Editor: Cai Junyi)