Post Date December, 02 2023
Due to my wife's betrayal, I originally felt strong and could only hide in the bedroom while my wife was not at home to get drunk and cry bitterly. After my wife returned home, I also pretended to have forgiven her and squeezed out a little smile.
I thought about divorce, but because I still loved my wife deeply, I could only swallow the bitter fruit of being cuckolded. No one knew that I had once taken sleeping pills due to my wife's betrayal, but my life should not have ended. On the next day after taking sleeping pills, although my whole body was numb and I felt sleepy, I never saw the Lord Yan.
I met my wife through a friend's introduction. I was fascinated by her beautiful appearance and independent career. Although she is easily irritable, bad-tempered, and very selfish, I still love her without hesitation, because only when I commit crimes for her can I feel happy.
"I have worked hard to be nice to my wife, but she flirted online with an unmarried man behind my back.". This matter was personally explained by her while she was talking in her sleep.
Lying next to me with another man in mind, how can it be so embarrassing for me as a husband? Although I know that my wife won't divorce me for any man, or if I didn't hear her dream words, I would think I was a happy man. However, after knowing the truth, I began to be impetuous.
"I used to be careless, and I would lose my temper with my wife for some small things. Even if my wife came home a little late from work every day, I would be furious with her.". I know that my mindset is also slowly changing, and perhaps the woman I once wholeheartedly loved in front of me is no longer loved. What I am nostalgic for, and what I am unwilling to do, may be just my own efforts over the years.
Now, my mind is full of the idea of escaping from this city. However, when a person says goodbye to their familiar environment and old friends, there is still some inner entanglement.
These days, I feel like losing my soul. I go out early in the morning every day, and I am willing to go home in the middle of the night. In my wandering state, my mind constantly reflects the figure of my wife and the harm she has caused me.
I just want to be a swinging doll, not knowing whether to continue the marriage or choose to stay away.
The path of life is a bit confusing, except for drunkenness and tears, I just want to die.
Re:
Your city is soaked in a sense of sadness, stemming from the harm that your beloved woman has inflicted on you. It can be seen that this injury has a great impact on you, and perhaps even those who love you deeply.
Regarding love, sometimes' emotional strategies' can also appear pale and powerless, because too many 'I love you, but you love her' phenomena in reality always make people feel helpless and tortured.
A person who thinks he is strong tends to be very self-control and strive for perfection in life, which means that your wife's betrayal cannot be forgiven in your heart. In the current situation, the reason why you haven't mentioned divorce is because you're not ready for divorce. Therefore, you can only face the betrayal of your beloved wife through self harm.
Love is also fragile glass, once broken, it is difficult to piece it together again. Your loyalty to love, the only one you desire to love, shatters your dreams and tears away your pain in reality.
After you had an experience taking sleeping pills, I felt that at the moment you weren't dead, your heart had already died, and from then on, you really didn't love anymore. In this case, give the marriage a confession of breaking up, and from then on, die of old age without communication. Because she must pay the price for her betrayal, and you must bear the heartbreak of breaking up because you cannot let go of her betrayal.
To be honest, your experience has also made me feel a bit sad. I hope that after the divorce, you can use your time to heal yourself. I believe you can survive.
Don't let past experiences erase your pursuit of love. Believe that one day, you will eventually meet a woman who you love, and who loves you, and who can make love for each other.
(Intern editor: Lai Jiaxing)
