Post Date December, 03 2023
I am 22 years old this year, and I have just graduated from college. Except for a blue and bitter first love that ended in nothing, the emotional world is blank.
A year ago, I met him online, a 33-year-old man, a gentle, mature and charming man, with his singing every night, his bright smile, his care on my sick days, his blessing on New Year's Eve, and his news on Valentine's Day. Slowly I fell in love with this man, the perfect man in my eyes, but he has already had a home. I thought I could control my emotions, but day by day, the growing yearning made me unable to gradually compromise with the yearning and gradually approach him intentionally, and he also understood my meaning and deliberately alienated.
Once I was ill again, and his concern followed. He said, "How can you get better?"? I jokingly said: You treat me to dinner. A joke, let's meet for the first time, forget to say that he and I are in the same city, very close. We went to the Water Paradise to eat western food, and watched a movie at my insistence after dinner. Romantic first date, gentle him, western food and movies. I began to lose myself completely, and I also saw traces of love in his eyes. After several months together, I can't leave him now. As long as I can accompany him, I will be satisfied. Although it is silly, I think I can't bear to lose him, his gentle kiss and his gentle embrace. I am willing to sink like this. I even hope that I can go on like this all my life and never mention my sadness and my helplessness in front of him. I need his company and don't want to see his hurt eyes. He loves me and loves me very much. I know, but I also know that I can only be his lover and stand behind him. Remember his tears, remember him holding me and saying: Baby, I'm sorry for you. I also remember him saying: Baby, don't leave me.
Xiao Wei:
"His gentle kiss, his gentle embrace..." What a romantic and charming scene. I can't bear to tell you this story when I see that you have completely sunk in his gentle countryside: in fact, many years ago, he gave another woman such tenderness, and he also called her baby. He gave her nothing less than what he gave you. He also brought her back to his home and introduced her to his parents. His parents were smiling and his neighbors and relatives were familiar with her. He can't wait to tell the world that she is his favorite woman! She is his girlfriend. He wants to marry her and live with her all his life. She also took him to her parents in a big way and said that he was his boyfriend... Finally, he got his wish and became her husband. Later, he was tired of the beauty of the woman who had to marry home every day. He felt that she was not as young and beautiful as before. So while enjoying the warm harbor she had created for him, he sought new stimulation on the vast internet. In this way, he met another girl who was as young as his wife in that year. The girl was very simple and easy to coax. He didn't even need to rehearse carefully, and he didn't need to be afraid of marrying her in that year. He could easily take the girl to see movies, eat western food, and even go to the hotel to open a room... Only this girl, he would never take her home, nor need to take her to his parents to proudly say that this is his girlfriend, I won't let my neighbors and relatives know that there is such a girl... However, this girl said that she doesn't mind, as long as she can stay with him, she is even willing to love him silently behind his back for a lifetime regardless of fame. However, she forgot that she would be old too, but in ten years, she would be as old as his wife now.
