Post Date April, 15 2023
Xiaohui (alias) is very assertive about love. She is not a casual girl. It took me a long time to catch up with her. At that time, there were many men chasing Xiaohui, but she just picked me, which made me feel extremely proud.
Xiaohui is a nurse. She lives in a hospital. I live in a community 17 bus stops from her. Whenever I sit on the bus and go to see her in half the city, my heart is full of joy.
In the car, I think of her smile and her occasionally naughty appearance. I think it is very beautiful and will laugh unconsciously. Once I discussed with Xiaohui whether we could move to a room and rent a house in the place where she works. Every morning, we boiled eggs and milk or noodles.
How beautiful that life should be. Xiaohui disagrees. She says she has to work at night. She doesn't like to rush around on the road every day, and doesn't like to live together prematurely. She wanted to leave that wonderful life until after marriage.
I agree with her and respect her choice. I still insist on seeing her every day. We still have a little time, and two people are tired of being together.
Finally, three years later, Xiaohui agreed to marry me. This long love period has given me a different view of feelings. Her rigorous attitude makes me feel that I can never control her. She is so powerful, so headstrong, calling for wind and rain in front of me. I asked myself if I would choose to break up with her. Just when our relationship went wrong, Xiaohui told me that she wanted to get married. In recent years, there has been more than love between me and her.
Even if we leave one day, we are still connected to our muscles. Her action made me give up my previous decision. Didn't you want to have a future with her? Now, she has given me a chance, and I should take it well.
After marriage, Xiaohui was indeed a very good wife. She cleans the house clean and always prepares the food before I go home from work every day. The clothes at home are also neatly folded. Every time I get home, I feel very comfortable, especially when the breeze blows in from the window, I feel that my fatigue is gone. I thought this was happiness.
But I didn't expect that Xiaohui didn't just love cleanliness. Her love was a psychological compulsion. She began to miss my shoes all day long. She didn't give up. She put toothpaste in the bath basin. She remembered that my clothes were not neatly placed and that the soot on the table could not be dispersed. Gradually, we got into trouble because of this contradiction. Later, she even said that I was not allowed to stand and urinate. She washed the toilet very tired.
She said that she was very tired, and I didn't mean it. Because of some trivial things, our feelings gradually lost color. I miss her in the past. I miss the pure white memory when we were just together.
Maybe it was because she always found that I couldn't do it. Then she simply made a family rule. There are 17 rules in total, one of which is that I am not allowed to stand and urinate. Every time I fail to do one, I will be punished for washing clothes or cooking. Looking at the family rules she set up, I was a little confused. I want her to see a psychologist, but I'm afraid to hurt her self-esteem.
After thinking for a long time, I came up with a good idea. I had to hire a nanny to come back to clean up. Although the nanny who came to my house could not do it for a long time, I was finally out of the misery. Because Xiaohui has gradually changed from taking care of me to taking care of the nanny. If the house is not cleaned properly, she will go to look for the nanny. I naturally don't need to be tortured by her. In this way, I was relieved.
(Intern editor: Lai Jiaxing)
