Post Date December, 02 2023
My strong husband is killing me
I was introduced to him and we have been in love for four years. I am a very conservative woman. At the beginning of our relationship, he and I would not walk hand in hand on the road like normal lovers. Because I always think that I would be a very casual woman like that. I didn't agree with him until I had been in love for two months. I still remember how happy he was when he first took my hand.
After a year of dating, the two of us only held hands and chatted. Later, over time, we kissed and hugged like normal people. You may think I'm an overly rigid person, but that's the truth. I have always been very cautious with him.
Actually, as a man, he doesn't want to do that with me, but my repeated objections have kept him from succeeding. "Every time he finishes drinking, he tries to make out with me, but I just can't get over the hump in my heart.". "Once again, I was locked up in his house by him. I thought he really wanted to, and I was ruthless and obedient.". But when he tried to take off my coat, I was scared and ran away.
That's how I protected myself before getting married. Last year we got married. On my wedding night, I gave myself to him because it was really painful for the first time. But think about it. I've had him endure it for years, and now I have no reason to refuse him. So that night I tried my best to cooperate with him.
We do that almost every day after marriage. After a long time, actually, I have some antipathy and always feel that this is a dispensable matter. But I don't know why his desire is getting stronger day by day. Every day when he comes home, he struggles for a while, but I feel increasingly disgusted.
It's still the same now, and every time I see his hungry eyes, I even feel a little scared. After thinking for a long time, I decided not to do this anymore, always feeling like I was being tortured. I want to divorce him, but I don't know how to talk to him? What do you think I should do?
(Intern editor: Lai Jiaxing)
