Post Date December, 02 2023
I can fall asleep while standing. In order to prepare for tomorrow's wedding, I have no chance to close my eyes. My fiancee Xiaoting sat beside me, dizzy and yawning. I saw her look tired, so I asked her to go back to rest. Now, hotels, floats, dresses and everything else are ready, just waiting for marriage.
"You should have a rest earlier. Don't be tired. There are still many things to do tomorrow!" Xiaoting kissed me. I hugged her and said, "Don't worry." Then I watched her leave. At that moment, I seemed to return to the moment of first love. At that time, we were still at school, and she always told me to go to school in the morning. I often just open my eyes in the morning when Xiaoting falls on me. I lay in bed, not fully awake. Xiaoting laughed and played with me. I was pressed by her chest, felt her smooth skin from the open collar, and squeezed her solid breasts. She did not block me, and played with me, so we were often late. Sometimes, when I mentioned these things, Xiaoting would always blush for her past unfaithfulness and naivety: "You are really a bad guy, but you bullied me when others kindly asked you to go to school."
Recalling here, I was dumbfounded. Then stand in front of the mirror and observe yourself. That face is no longer naive. Tomorrow, I will marry Xiaoting in the presence of everyone. I will become a standard man in the future. I will support my family and take the responsibility of supporting a happy family. I suddenly felt that I was not ready! Marriage makes me uneasy, but I don't know why.
It wasn't long before I thought about it. I buried myself in the quilt and was going to sleep. Just then, my mobile phone rang! "So late, who will it be?" I wondered. It was not others who called, but Xiaoting's intimate friend, Xiaoya, the bridesmaid of tomorrow's wedding. When I talk about Xiaoya, I always have a complex feeling in my heart. Since I accidentally discovered the secret of her youth turmoil, we have established a relationship. Over the years, my love and sex life have been separated. Xiao Ting, who is orthodox and conservative, can do anything for me, but she never wants to die for me. The reason why I love her so much and choose to marry her is that I value her.
The woman who carries Xiaoting on her back and often sleeps with me is Xiaoya. I don't love her, but I just enjoy her. For a moment, I need her body. Xiaoya is also right. I have no tenderness for her. That tenderness is also made, trying to create a false happiness to confuse her.
"Xiaoya, what's up?"
"I'm very unhappy tonight. I want to find someone to talk to. Some confused thoughts make my stomach ache, and I feel very uncomfortable." Xiaoya said gently.
"But..." I hardly know how to answer, "I will marry Xiaoting in a few hours, and you are still the bridesmaid."
"I really need you now, because you are open and open-minded. You can always solve my most heartfelt problems in a few words." Xiaoya said affectionately.
"Xiaoya, I really can't..."
"Didn't you say that you should be loyal to me after marriage? Now you have become so without marriage!" Xiao Ya said with a sudden change of voice, "I'm going to test whether what you said before counts!"
Hearing Xiao Ya say this, I can't sleep any more.
Twenty minutes later, we met at the bar. Xiao Ya arrived earlier than me. She found a window seat and ordered two glasses of wine. We didn't say anything, just drank all the time. After drinking, Xiaoya suddenly lost control and climbed on the table and cried. "I thought I could stick to our agreement. But I didn't expect that when I really faced this moment, I was so vulnerable. I knew you didn't love me, but I wasn't willing to be the bridesmaid to send you to another woman's arms. I couldn't do it, I couldn't do it..." I hugged her, comforted her and said that I would not ignore her if I got married. Whenever she needs me, I will go. Or because of alcohol, I feel Xiaoya slowly relax. We talked for a long time, and she finally figured out that tomorrow I can finally get married easily.
When I came out of the bar, I felt dizzy when the cool wind blew in the street. "Let's go to the hotel and open a room. Tonight is me, tomorrow is her. I want to take the lead..." Xiaoya said with a silly smile, a little sad. I am very heartache and soft-hearted. This girl doesn't want anything. I need her to come and go when I meet her. I owe her too much.
After leaving the hotel, Xiaoya took me to a taxi and said to me through the glass, "Tell Xiaoting that I can't attend the wedding today."
I am speechless.
The wedding was carried out step by step according to the established procedure. I thought about Xiaoya until the person in charge of the wedding asked me to propose to Xiaoting in public. I knelt on one knee and said to Xiaoting, "I only love you in this life, please marry me!" At that moment, I suddenly felt extremely uncomfortable.
On the wedding night, I was drunk and Xiaoting served me all night. That night, we did nothing.
(Intern editor: Cai Junyi)
