Post Date April, 15 2023
Frankly speaking, my acquaintance with Chen Tao was introduced by a friend, like the traditional kind of blind date, so it was not dramatic or even plain.
When the introducer brought him to me, I was surprised. A 32-year-old unmarried man was not the one left in the basket as his girlfriend Yalu said. On the contrary, the conditions were a little better than I expected. He was a mature man with sunshine and elegance in his speech and behavior, just like his name Chen Tao, full of poetry, and also the marketing director of a large company.
Chen Tao also fell in love with me at first sight. Goodbye and fell in love with me. When we met for the third time, he said to me, "Xi Ling, marry me." No flowers, no heartbeat, no blood boiling. I thought for three minutes and said, "OK!"
Before I met Chen Tao, I met several men, but after going to bed, most of them showed their true colors and didn't want to face the future marriage. The reason is ridiculously simple. I am a senior accountant of a foreign company. I am 30 years old and unmarried. I must have a strong personality. A man who marries a woman who is too strong will not be happy.
Maybe that's the case. There are many men who appreciate me, but few men who pay the bill. Her close friend Yalu analyzed that the pressure on men caused by 30-year-old women is not physical pressure, but psychological pressure. Men will think that women after the age of 30 have gone through many vicissitudes and read countless people. No man can easily walk into a woman full of stories. What's more, women are always lonely at the high end.
But Chen Tao never asked me about my past. He once told me that two people love each other for the future, not the past. I am moved by this sentence, and I promise to marry Chen Tao.
The wedding was held at Christmas three months later, and the floats decorated with red roses were scattered all the way along the street. All the friends sent blessings, only Yalu, who said a curse like a witch on the phone: "I don't believe that your love will come to an end. Even if you walk through the red carpet hand in hand, you can't go through the long life together. If you don't believe it, I'll bet with you." If it wasn't for Yalu's friendship with me, I would have scolded her as bloody as a dog, calling her a crow's mouth. But I still joked back to her: "I will bet you that you secretly seduce Chen Tao. If he is cheated, I will be regarded as a failure. As you said, my love with Chen Tao will not end."
I know that our marriage is just like meeting in love. There is no drama. It can be said to be very dull. Life is originally dull. We have a good feeling for each other and are willing to live in peace in the form of marriage. We will have another child in a few years until we die. I think I should be satisfied and happy.
To test my husband's loyalty, I let my friends seduce him
Chen Tao took good care of everything in his family. I began to get used to this man in my marriage. In the first year of marriage, I thought that this was the whole of life. We will grow old in this way
Unfortunately, life is always full of variables, which makes people unprepared. I don't know when Chen Tao began to carry his mobile phone on his body all the time. Even when he came home and changed into his pajamas, he would put his mobile phone in his nightgown pocket and even hold it in his hand when going to the bathroom. When did this situation begin?
I have no accurate time memory. In fact, I never answer Chentao's mobile phone. Before, when it was left on the sofa on the table and on the bed, Chentao would often shout across the toilet: "Please help me connect it!" But I just gave it to Chentao to take it to the toilet and let him pick it up. Now, Chen Tao suddenly keeps his mobile phone. Many times, he is busy answering the phone as soon as it rings, and only says a few vague words.
Women may have a very sensitive intuition. Chen Tao has a problem with his mobile phone everywhere, which makes me think about a lot of reasons. The last thing I think about is that he won't accept it - Chen Tao has an affair. I asked Chen Tao why? Chen Tao said, "It's convenient to take it with you." Maybe it's because I'm too careless. I always feel that Chen Tao's face changes a little pale when he said this.
Once I saw the wedding photo on the wall, I suddenly wanted to call Yalu to tell her secret worries. "Yalu, I feel that Chen Tao has changed, but I can't tell what he has changed. Now I want to make a bet with you. You can tempt him and help me verify whether he is a man who is not loyal to love and marriage."
"Don't regret it then." Yalu is still like a witch chanting a curse on the phone, leaving me a sense of inexplicable disappointment and emptiness.
I followed my husband and discovered his affair unexpectedly
It was a very warm weekend. I don't know whether I meant it or not. When Chen Tao told me to work overtime, I pretended to take out the garbage and got off the elevator with him, then waved goodbye to him at the gate of the hospital.
As soon as his car turned out of the gate, I followed him quietly. In the eyes of Chen Tao, I have always been a woman with strong personality and self-respect. Chen Tao would not believe that a woman like me would behave like this even if she was killed.
He walked all the way forward and finally stopped at a place called "Old Tree Bar" by the lake. This is a very remote bar, because it is far from the city and very quiet. Chen Tao walked straight to one of the tables. There was a beautiful woman sitting at the table. Although it was a little far away, I could still see that it was a very delicate woman. It seemed that she was angry, holding the petals in the vase on the table one by one.
I saw Chen Tao come to her and bend down to coax the woman in a soft voice. When the woman looked up at Chen Tao, I finally saw that it was her close friend Yalu. Her performance was so good that I was jealous.
I'm a bit in a trance. How can this person be Chen Tao? Although Chen Tao usually speaks quietly, when will he bend down to coax a woman? Moreover, pampering like that. In my memory, Chen Tao was the most gentle to me. He just stroked my hair with his hand and left his kiss on my forehead. I always thought that was the way he expressed his love. Now it seems that I was wrong. Chen Tao gave me marriage, but did not give me love. Remembering a word Yalu once said to me, I have a kind of bone pain.
I quietly went out of the corner gate and gave up tracking him. I was surprised after I confirmed my guess. Yalu was right in predicting that my marriage with Chen Tao was just a fragile blue and white porcelain. I hid in a deserted corner and dialed Yalu's mobile phone. "Yalu, where are you? I have something to look for you." Yalu said in a low voice: "No, I can't leave because the company is holding a temporary meeting." The real lie, I suddenly felt that Yalu was not acting. She is the final winner and the protagonist of the play. I am just a bored audience.
I came home disappointed. I knew that I had lost the bet with Yalu, but I was still a little unwilling. Lying on the big bed, I called Chen Tao and asked where he was? Say I'm not feeling well, please make sure he comes back early. I could hear his panic on the phone. He tried to calm down, but he promised me that he would come back early.
When Chen Tao came back, it was dark. He saw him standing in front of my bed and said, "You don't look well. What's wrong with you?" I looked at his face and burst into tears. I said that I had a stomachache. Chen Tao rushed to give me the following note. I sat in the dark and asked myself: Do you want to expose the truth? The result is no. My pride won't allow it.
That night, I lost sleep for the first time after my marriage.
I chose to leave, and my friend became the new owner of the house
The next day, when Chen Tao was waiting for me to work together, I pulled out a big box and packed my clothes. I said to Chen Tao: I'm going to study abroad recently and may not come back for some time.
Chen Tao said, "Why didn't you talk about it?" I smiled and said, "It's just decided." I want to give myself some time. Although I knew that divorce was sooner or later when I saw Chen Tao's affair, I don't want him to abandon me formally without any preparation.
Chen Tao was surprised. He said, "Do you want me to take you to the station or airport?" I said, "No, the company has a car to pick you up."
Avoidance may not be the best way, but beyond that, I don't know what to do. I didn't want to end this marriage, or in my heart, I would not.
In this impetuous city, Yalu is my best friend. She is my age and still single. I planned to go to stay with Yalu for a period of time, but when I saw her acting with Chen Tao, I couldn't see any flaws. I decided to choose a hotel to stay first.
After staying in the hotel for a week, my mobile phone was on 24 hours, but Chen Tao didn't call me, nor did I call him. A man's heart is gone, and he will not even perfunctory. Men are terrible. It suddenly occurred to me that Chen Tao and I had never quarreled. There was no quarrel in marriage. When I think of this moment, it is as unreal as the moon in the water. I decided to give up. I don't want to escape anything. This kind of marriage without love, what should it do?
When I suddenly returned to the house where I had lived with Chen Tao for a year with a big box, Yalu stood in front of me in her pajamas, looking so uneasy. "Xiling, I'm sorry, I always love him very much, I don't want to cheat you." Looking at her girlfriend Yalu, who had been living together day and night, suddenly became so strange and distant.
"Needless to say, I'm sorry, I lost the bet, I think." I said to Yalu without expression, "I'll borrow the words you said to me at my wedding. Don't regret it then." Chen Tao stood in the living room, a little flustered. I didn't give him time to adjust: "If you're okay, let's discuss divorce."
A long silence. "Xi Ling, can we still be friends?" Chen Tao sent me out. "No need!" I said coldly, "We are no longer friends." Although many people say that we can be friends after divorce, I don't want to involve myself in Chen Tao's future life. Chen Tao said nothing more.
We divorced soon, and there was really no love in this marriage. After all, he and I were just strangers knocking at the wrong door. Although there was no unforgettable pain during the divorce, I was no longer willing to give good expectations to love, nor to trust love easily.
(Intern editor: Lai Jiaxing)
