Post Date December, 03 2023
Xiaohui, 18, has been working in Shenzhen for one year, and now has resigned and is ready to return to her hometown. This year's working years left her youth with permanent wounds. The most painful thing is that she was still drunk and could not wake up.
Xiaohui, a Shandong girl, came to Shenzhen last August to join relatives and was arranged to work as a waiter in a restaurant. Xiaohui's figure is relatively plump, probably because she has participated in labor in the countryside, and her character is particularly simple and kind. Unexpectedly, these characteristics were immediately taken by Pipi, a 40-year-old Shandong man.
Pi Pi is a frequent guest of the hotel where Xiaohui works. In addition to using it as a canteen when he comes home, the girls in the hotel know him. After seeing Xiaohui, Pipi often came to "take care of" the little fellow. Xiaohui came from the remote countryside to the prosperous city, and saw the hotel workers go out with friends in their spare time. She was very envious, but she didn't have any friends in Shenzhen, which made her very disappointed and felt that she was always a rural person. One day Pi Pi asked her, "Where can I go after work?" Xiaohui replied, "Where can I go? I'm not familiar with life here, and I can't even recognize the road. Of course, she knew that Pippi had a family and children. She was over forty years old, but she thought he was a fellow villager who cared about himself. That's all.
The next day Pipi bought a mobile phone and gave it to Xiaohui, saying it was convenient to contact. This time Xiaohui was very worried. She said that she didn't need it. There was a phone in the hotel and she didn't have friends. It was useless to ask for a mobile phone. Seeing that Pipi was determined to give it to her, she added, "I will pay you back as soon as I get paid." So Xiaohui used Pipi's mobile phone and the two often went out to eat and play. Xiaohui said, "At that time, I didn't think he was a bad guy, and we always had a distance when we went out." But Xiaohui's inner burden was getting heavier and heavier, and when she ate someone else's food and took someone else's food, she became harder and harder to speak.
Pipi soon knew Xiaohui's "intention". As soon as Xiaohui went to work, he would come to eat and drink. With Xiaohui's mobile phone and new clothes, she even felt that several female workers admired her, which satisfied her vanity. The first time I received a message from Pipifa that I liked her, Xiaohui was nervous and scared. She wrote back and said, "You have children in your family, why do you say such things to a little girl like me?" Pippi replied, "Love is sacred. When love comes, enjoy it. Don't think so much."
Since then, "love" has become the subject of text messages. Pippi almost makes more than a dozen calls every day, and one call in the evening is just a few hours, telling Xiaohui the "true meaning of love". Pipi, 41, said to Xiaohui, a 17-year-old innocent girl, "You are too conservative. How open society is now. You can't eat like this. You must emancipate your mind and not be bound by outdated ideas. Who cares if you are a virgin when a man marries now? Everyone is like this. You should learn to enjoy life." Xiaohui was more and more trapped by these paradoxical words. She called her mother at that time, Said that he was entangled by an old man. The mother in her hometown was so worried that she told her to hurry home and stop working in Shenzhen. But Xiaohui didn't leave and didn't dare to tell her what happened later.
Finally, on that night, Xiaohui watched Pipi open a room in the hotel. It was December 11 last year. When she entered the room, Xiaohui still wanted to resist. She said to Pipi, "Can you let me go?" But her struggle was too weak, and she had received so many "favors" from him. Xiaohui felt that since he insisted on doing so, she should repay him in this way. In the evening, she went back to the dormitory and told her roommate what had happened. She naively said, "Well, this matter is finally over, and I won't owe him anymore." The roommate said meaningfully, "Do you think it's over? There will be more times for the first time, and that's the beginning." And she was right.
Xiaohui's "reward" really just started, and she soon became Pipi's fixed lover. At that time, Pipi was very enthusiastic. He came to find Xiaohui almost every day to have a midnight snack and go shopping together. He confided to her that his wife was very capable and powerful. When he came home, he felt out of breath, and once said that his eyes were full of tears. He said, "If you speak, I will go back and divorce her." The 17-year-old girl was overwhelmed by the tears of the middle-aged man, and tried to persuade him to treat his wife better and never divorce. Pipi would give her a little money of one or two hundred yuan from time to time. At first, Xiaohui was a little psychological burden, but later she took it more and more naturally. But when she returned to the dormitory late at night, Xiaohui would feel dirty looking at the money. She wrote in her diary:
"I seem to be selling my body!" What's worse, she gradually lost her heart in this cheap sale, fell in love with this man, and thought she could be with him forever.
Such days lasted for three months. In March of this year, Xiaohui felt unwell and went to the hospital and found that she had a serious gynecological disease. When Pipi knew it, he didn't take it seriously at all. He said, "It doesn't matter. It can be cured." Apart from giving her money to cure the disease, he doesn't care anymore. What makes Xiaohui feel uncomfortable is that Pippi's attitude has changed. He no longer often comes to the hotel, saying that his wife is becoming more and more strict and can't come out. By May this year, if Xiaohui didn't call him, he would never call again, and it was always annoying to find him to answer: "I'm busy, I don't have time."
Xiaohui's heart suddenly emptied, and she was so lost that she had no idea. One day when she was drunk, the hotel staff encouraged her to call Pipi for money and said that she would take the money back to her hometown. She did fight, but Pippi's answer made her scared. He said, "Who do you think you are? There are many silly girls like you in Shenzhen street. You can find one every day. If you want to make trouble, do it. You know where my family is, and you can see who can make trouble! Do you want me to divorce and marry you? Don't dream, it's naive!" Those harsh insults woke her up from her dream, She finally learned that she was just one of many girls Pippi played with. The words "I will never be separated from you" in the past were just the lines in these games, but she took them seriously.
The truth came out, but Xiaohui didn't want to wake up from her dream. She came to the newspaper and told the reporter everything. On the same day, she asked Pipi to come out and say that she had quit her job and wanted to return to her hometown. Pipi said nothing. She wanted to give her some money, but Xiaohui refused. Xiaohui called the reporter and said, "I still love him."
The reporter said to the lost girl, "What you love is not him, but your own naive and naive love dream at the age of 17. Unfortunately, this is a nightmare. One day when you are mature, you will know how this person has used your innocence meanly." I hope that Xiaohui's tragedy will not be repeated on other girls, and hope that Xiaohui will learn from this mistake and take the future road. The same sentence: if you are wrong at the beginning, you are doomed to be wrong at the end.
(Intern editor: Cai Junyi)
