I am 29 years old this year. Three years ago, I became a good friend and close friend with a female colleague who is 4 years older than me. Later, I had a relationship. Her family is not harmonious, and her husband has had an affair. "We get along very well," she said. "I feel very secure.".
One accidental time, I found a photo on her mobile phone, a man lying on her bed, and I directly broke my heart! This man is her husband's good friend and his boss! She said she felt guilty about hurting me, which means that she was sad because this man had other women, and I was more caring and tolerant towards her, so we came together. To be honest, I broke my heart, but I couldn't let her go!
She said that he was a gangster who always bullied her and would cut off contact with him. I was also distressed when I heard that and accepted this, but I left that picture in private! However, later on, he always pestered her. Once, she said she was afraid at night, so I went to accompany her, but at 12 o'clock in the evening, he suddenly came to find her. "She said she was afraid that he would come in and make trouble, so she went out, but she didn't come back all night. I spent the whole night looking for her on the street. The next day, she said that they had been fighting on the street all night and completely separated, but I felt very uncomfortable in my heart.".
Although there have been many quarrels and I also have shadows, I still treat her well, and she also said that she is very moved. Sometimes I want to be with her, and she always says she's bored and wants to be quiet! I found out that she and he still have phone contact, and I didn't feel like it either. I quarreled several times! But suddenly one day, she said she was tired of it, let's split it up and be good friends!
We used to be very good friends! At this moment, my heart hated her so much that she couldn't hear what she was saying. I even took that photo out to annoy her, but in the end, I couldn't bear to hurt her! She said, 'Let's be good friends!'! "At that time, I was always angry and didn't listen at all. Sometimes, when I think of it, I simply couldn't control myself. I've been pestering myself several times.". A year ago, she said that you were incurable and we had no relationship anymore!
Almost a year has passed, and I feel very guilty when I think of the friendship of my former friends and confidants. I feel like I have lost a good friend. Sometimes I think of her concealment, as well as the photo, and when she finally said goodbye, she was casual, felt that she had no feelings for me, especially hated her, and even had the urge to retaliate against her, but actually I couldn't bear it! For a while, I was like a split personality, and as time went on, my resentment faded, and I felt that friendship was still precious for a long time, but she had broken any contact with me!
Brother Shan, although this kind of thing is unethical and immoral, it is a deep feeling for me, and it is difficult to forget. What do you think of it? I forgot to say the key point, this woman never asked me for any money or things, and I have given some things and other help, but they are all willing and there is no such dispute!
In the emotional field, some injuries are innocent, some injuries are unjustified, and some injuries are self inflicted. In fact, in pursuit of every true love, it is necessary to be prepared to be hurt, because emotions are originally very hurtful things. As for your relationship, your pain is really your own fault. Obviously, you are an unmarried young person, but you tend to make friends with married older women. Due to your overestimation of your male charm and naive involvement in your relationship, you lose your normal judgment and cannot see that the other person is just using you as a healing tool.
"This woman is unfortunate, but when she encounters you, you are even more unfortunate than she is, and your common misfortune lies in allowing yourself to live too humbly. The root cause of humbleness lies in losing your moral bottom line and disregarding your own dignity.". In your eyes, you think that what you put into practice is a piece of true love, and in front of true love, what you do is even more abject than being abject. Don't blame me for being rude, I just want to tell the truth. Therefore, regarding your past, please bury it in your heart and don't take it out to show it to yourself from time to time, because it is not worth showing off and is not glorious.
Congratulations on your courage to face up to your own scum. Being able to do this indicates that you are not so scum now. I believe that you are still a good young person from now on, learning to forget what should be forgotten, forgetting the woman who didn't belong to you and the immature you in the past, facing up to the present and being the best you can be, is not it right to start the best relationship again? People should always be grateful, rather than constantly retaliating against others. What you don't get indicates that you don't deserve or can't get it. The best revenge is to live your life well, achieve yourself, make others look up to you, or even worship you.