Post Date December, 03 2023
That year, I was 25 years old. Like all girls of the same age, I reached the age of marriage. I look like a general, introverted and talkative. After graduation, I was arranged to teach in a primary school in the county. In addition to keeping in touch with a few good sisters, I have little contact with the opposite sex on weekdays. I am the kind of person who blushes when meeting boys.
Seeing that winter is about to pass, I will be 26 years old after the new year. My parents are worried, and they constantly ask relatives and friends to introduce me. I met several people successively, but none of them was suitable. They were either short or with low education. I'm a bit discouraged and don't want to go on a blind date.
Suddenly one day, my neighbor Aunt Li came to my house, and as soon as she entered the door, she shouted, "Oh, Snow, her mother, I have found a good marriage for Snow in your family." It was only after hearing that the boy worked in a city, whose name is Tao, who is twenty-eight years old this year. His family was in the countryside. His father died, and only his mother lived with him.
Aunt Li took my mother's hand and said how good the boy was and how promising he would be in the future. Even if there is no house in the city, it doesn't matter. The key is the boy himself.
My parents were persuaded that rural children can endure hardship, and it is very poor without father. So several people set a date for the meeting. A few days later, I met with Tao and their parents under the introduction of Aunt Li.
Under the introduction of Aunt Li, I secretly looked at the person in front of me. He is tall, thin, handsome, and has big blue eyes. He nodded to me. My face turned red and I quickly lowered my head.
My intuition tells me that I like the big boy in front of me. Next, parents of both sides should understand each other. Tao and I didn't say a word, but listened to our parents silently. I can see that Tao's mother is quite satisfied with my work. Although she is a rural woman, her words are shrewd everywhere.
Days later, Tao asked me out for the first time. It was a snowy winter afternoon. I followed him shyly, and the feeling of happiness surrounded me. The snowflakes fell lightly from the air and stuck on his black hair and neat clothes. "The road is slippery, be careful." He turned to me and said, just like the plot in the movie. He first invited me to a restaurant for dinner, and then took me to a music teahouse where young people often go on dates.
He was very careful. After I ordered a normal drink, he ordered some snack food that little girls like to eat. There is little talk between us, listening to romantic and soft music, and more silence.
I stole a glance at A Tao beside me. His eyes were still as blue as if he had something on his mind. He looked at the distance blankly. "Have you dealt with anyone before?" He broke his silence. "No." "Do you teach Chinese or math?" "Math." I'm very nervous. This is my first date. I only heard my heart beating. Then he took a taxi to take me home.
After that, we met again several times. To tell the truth, I don't know anything about him. I always thought that his melancholy had something to do with his personality. Or maybe he lost his father's reason. He probably also had a good feeling for me. Soon after, their family asked Aunt Li to propose to my family, saying that he was very satisfied with me,
If I have no objection, I will get married on New Year's Day. I said, "Too fast." Aunt Li said, "Not fast, not fast. Men should marry, women should marry." In this way, under the arrangement of both parents, I and Tao will marry soon. Although I don't know much about Tao, many friends say that it is as good to get married before falling in love.
In the rented new house, I wash and cook for Tao, who has become my husband, and try to create a warm family atmosphere for him with my unskilled hands. I told myself that I must be a good wife. But Tao is busy almost every day, and seldom comes home several times a month. When asked, I always said that the company was very busy. At first, I always felt aggrieved. Later, I slowly began to think about it. It was rare for Tao to be so dedicated. I should support him instead of dragging him down.
When Tao is not at home, I feel lonely and go back to my mother's house. I am usually busy at work. In my spare time, I shop, shop and chat with several girlfriends. The rest of the time is to look forward to the day when Tao returns home. It was not easy to expect Tao to go home. I carefully prepared his favorite food, but he always put down his bowl when he could not eat much. Without a greeting I expected, he dragged his tired body to sleep. I always think something is wrong. Is marriage like this? But once again, I thought it would be like this. He is so tired. What can I ask him for!
A few months later, I found out that I was pregnant! I called Tao in a hurry. I want to tell him the good news as soon as possible. "Oh, really?" Without the surprise I expected, he calmly listened to me and then said. "Are you unhappy?" I was angry. "No, no, I'm very happy." He quickly disguised.
When Tao's mother and my mother-in-law heard the news, they immediately came to see me from the countryside with a lot of local eggs. She said to me, "Xiao Xue, make up for it. I will bring it to you when you give birth to a fat boy." Tao also came home a few days ago and cared more about me than before. If I want to come now, it may just be his perfunctory.
My pregnancy reaction is very serious. I can't eat anything and vomit as soon as I eat. My mother was so distressed that she took me to her house to take care of my life with three meals a day. However, Tao is still so busy, and there are not many phone calls. The call is also a simple greeting. Every time I come to my house, I just eat a meal and leave. I don't want him to leave. I hope he can stay with me for a while, but he always says he is busy. Thanks to the careful care of my parents, I was able to go through the long days of pregnancy in October.
Ten months later, I gave birth. When I was in the delivery bed, Tao arrived at the hospital. Unfortunately, I gave birth to a daughter, and my mother-in-law returned to the countryside on the second day of my birth. My mother loved me and took me back to her family. My daughter is very cute and has big bright eyes, which combines all the advantages of Tao and me.
After a few days with my daughter and me, Tao was busy leaving again. However, I don't feel lonely at all. My daughter is very good. She eats and sleeps all day and seldom cries. My mother is busy in and out. She is devoted to taking care of our mother's life. My daughter soon became full moon, and my body recovered. The weather is getting hot day by day, and I haven't returned to my own home for a long time. One evening, while my daughter was asleep, I got up and went home to find some clothes for spring.
At the moment I opened the door, I was shocked. A strange woman and A Tao hugged and slept! They sat up in panic when they heard the door open. My mind was blank, tears immediately blurred my eyes, and I ran out regardless of everything. "Why? Why?" I kept asking myself in my heart. "You want to die!" A taxi pulled up in front of me, and the driver scolded rudely. But I can't manage so much. I ran forward aimlessly.
I longed for Tao to come out and find me, and then explain everything to me, but he didn't. I don't know when I just walked back to my parents' house step by step. The daughter has already woken up and her mother is feeding her. I sat on the sofa, my tears could not stop flowing down. After listening to my cry, my father angrily pulled me and said, "Go and find that bastard!"
"In the middle of the night, wait until dawn." Mom persuaded Dad. How hard the night was! I tossed and turned, unable to sleep, and the scenes of the past came to me. What a wonderful marriage I once dreamed of, it broke like a soap bubble in an instant. My husband is such a beast! Don't he love me? Why marry me if you don't love me?
I haven't thought about tea and rice for several days, and I'm too lazy to take a look at my daughter. The parents are even more anxious. They can't find Tao everywhere. A few days later, I received a call from A Tao, who said that he only wanted to talk with me alone. In the house that once belonged to us, Tao and I met.
His eyes were bloodshot and his hair was messy, but there was no regret I imagined. He told me the story between him and the woman in pain. It turned out that he and the woman named Fen were high school classmates, both from remote rural areas. The same situation brought them together, and they fell in love.
Soon, Finn dropped out of school because of poverty in her family, while Tao was admitted to university one year later. Unfortunately, at that time, Tao's father fell ill because of overwork and soon died. A Tao can no longer continue his studies. His fate can be imagined. At that moment, Fen appeared and said to Tao, "I will pay you to go to college!" Fen worked in a hair salon at that time. In order for Tao to study well, she was frugal and suffered a lot. In this way, with the help of Finn, Tao successfully finished college,
Then they will be assigned to the current unit. After work, Tao decided to marry his beloved Fen, but Tao's mother strongly disagreed. She hoped that Tao could find a city girl with a job to marry, so that the family would no longer be poor. If Tao dares to marry Fen, she will die! Tao has been wandering on the edge of love and family, while Fen has never married for him. Until he met me, he finally agreed to marry me with her mother's bitter plea, but he still loved Fen deeply in his heart. What he gave me was only a formal marriage.
Tao knelt before me and begged me to forgive him. "Liar, you shameful liar! What do you think of me?" I hit Tao with all my strength. "Fight, fight, as long as you can forgive me!" Tao knelt there, motionless. "Snow, just let me go and let me stay with my loved ones!" What else can I say? I walked out of the place that made me miserable.
Before long, Tao's mother came to take my daughter away from the countryside, and Tao never showed up again. For more than half a year, I have been living in pain every day. This sad marriage has brought me too much harm! I filed a divorce lawsuit in court. However, due to our carelessness at that time, we did not apply for a marriage certificate. The marriage between Tao and I was not protected by law. It was illegal cohabitation and was not accepted by the court. This may also be a trap deliberately arranged by Tao.
The snowflakes are floating, and my world is cold. I am also a woman eager for happiness. Why am I so unhappy? I want to forget my misfortune and start a new life!
(Intern editor: Lai Jiaxing)
