Post Date December, 03 2023
My girlfriend told me she was pregnant and asked me what to do? I should take responsibility. However, the pressure of reality makes me unable to make any commitment. In all kinds of frustration, I had to ask my parents for help, hoping that they could lend money to Honger for surgery. Unexpectedly, instead of being angry, their parents were very happy. They said in front of Honger, "What kind of surgery is it to get married?" Honger nodded quickly. In this way, the three of them decided to marry.
When we got married, we had almost nothing. The house is borrowed, and the deposit is not half cent, but Honger has no complaints. I believe that Honger loved me at that time. After the baby was born, our life was even more difficult. In order to earn more money, I decided to work in Shenzhen.
This is four years. Because of the particularity of my work, I can come back two or three times a year at most. During this period, Honger often called me and wrote to me, telling me not to be confused by the colorful world outside. I know that it is not easy for her to stay in Wuhan alone, so I will send all my money back to Wuhan except for living expenses, hoping that she and her children can live better.
My development in Shenzhen is not smooth. I have changed more than a dozen restaurants and my salary has not improved. Gradually, Honger complained and often said to me that Zhang San's husband became rich and Li Si's husband was promoted, "Why am I so unlucky to follow a useless man like you?" She asked me for money more and more times. As long as I refuse, she will lose her temper and scold me for being a coward. She is not a man and can't support her wife and children.
One day, my mother called me and asked me if I knew what Honger was doing recently. She hadn't come home to see her daughter for half a year. After her daughter was one year old, Honger sent her to my parents' house. Mother mumbled: "I don't give you the living expenses, I don't know what you are going to do!" My heart sank to the bottom. What is Honger doing during this time? Where has the money gone?
In spite of my boss's objection, I asked for half a month's leave. The original marriage house has been taken back by relatives. In recent years, Honger has rented houses everywhere. Every time I come back, she will give me a new address. However, that time, she refused to give, and finally agreed with me after I begged.
That day, I was at the appointed place. From 3 p.m. to 8 p.m., she finally came. If she hadn't called me, I could hardly recognize her. She wore a black ultra-short tight-fitting skirt, a hairy red camisole, and a pair of high boots. Her hair was too hot and domineering, and she was also heavily makeup. I have an ominous feeling. "Let's go!" She raised her eyebrows and turned to lead the way without looking at me
The rental house is in a mess. At the end of the bed, I saw a cigarette end. I asked, "Do you smoke?" "Yes, boring, smoking and playing." She said lightly. I was a little angry: "What are you doing during this time? Where is the money I gave you? Why don't you give the child living expenses?" She sneered: "How are you? Just your little money is not enough for me to fill my teeth. Rent a house, eat, dress, which is free? I told you, if you can't support me, don't care about me. I can support myself by my own ability." "Can you support yourself? Do you support yourself as a young lady?" I was a little angry. "You're right. Your wife now depends on being a young lady to support herself. How about that? Do you think it's very honorable?" Hong Er put her face in front of me and said arrogantly. I couldn't control it anymore. I slapped her in the face. This stabbed the hornet's nest, Hong Er cried, and her fists rained on me. Finally, she swept me out.
In the next few days, Honger refused to see me or even returned to the rental house. Seeing that the holiday is coming, my boss calls me back to Shenzhen several times a day. With extremely complicated feelings, I left. I have worked in that restaurant for 3 months. The boss thinks highly of me and the salary is good. I originally planned to do well for two years, save some money and open a small store in Wuhan. Now, the plan is all messed up. After repeated weighing, I submitted my resignation to my boss. The boss tried to keep me after learning about my situation, saying that a big husband should put his career first. However, I don't think there is anything more important than family.
After returning to Wuhan, I found Honger and tried to persuade her to change her mind. Honger said without expression, "I can't do it. You have to buy a house now, even a loan. Then take her over and let her study in Wuhan. Also, give me 2000 yuan of living expenses a month." I said helplessly that I can't do it now, but later... Honger interrupted me with a sneer: "If you can't do it, don't come to me." When she left, Honger said that she was short of money recently, and I gave her only 200 yuan.
Every time she meets, she always sneers and asks for money. My friends around me said that I was ill. However, if I don't give her money, she won't even see my face.
My family and friends suggested that I divorce. I also hope to end this torture as soon as possible. However, she made a good promise. Every time she took it seriously, she would play missing. My friend said that she regarded me as the future, and could come back in case she couldn't get along any day.
I just want to tell her that now I sincerely hope that she will come back, and both I and my children need her. However, if I exceed the limit I can bear, I will let go of my hand.
(Intern editor: Cai Junyi)
