I am a 30-year-old national civil servant. Extrovert, diligent and progressive, with ordinary appearance and slight temperament. My husband is also a civil servant, and he loves me with all his heart. My child is smart and lovely. However, my troubles are endless.
I used to work in a public institution and was admitted to the civil service through hard work. My husband and I started from scratch, and I secretly vowed to make some achievements. I am observant and suitable for administrative units. My husband is introverted and honest, and is a professional talent. I want to change my living standard through efforts. Soon I performed well in the unit. What I didn't expect was a pair of eyes staring at me behind my back.
My boss is 13 years older than me. He is a funny and capable middle-aged man with an average and short appearance. He always takes care of me. It is said that his marriage is not the first time, and the other party is very young. After hearing this, I always keep a distance with him intentionally or unintentionally, but we do work well together.
When I entered the company for two years, I heard that he was likely to be promoted. At this juncture, his marriage had problems, and he had another woman outside. After his divorce, his marriage was immediately reorganized. The promotion was not heard of, and his family members also betrayed. For this matter, many people in the unit have opinions on him.
He often invited his current wife to travel with our family during the holiday season. At first I felt uncomfortable, but my husband advised me that he was also kind. Anyway, the AA system, and gradually our personal relationship became more and more familiar. Later, he transferred to my superior unit. Once, he secretly told me that he could help me improve in work, but it was not enough to just work hard. I think we are already good friends, so I am very happy to accept his suggestions, And I have been following the way he said. I quickly stepped into the leadership position. I am very grateful to him. My husband respected him and felt that I met a noble person. Later, we also set up a small business in partnership, which has a good prospect. In order to further my career, he often helped me with advice, and I soon became a celebrity of the whole system.
One day, I was on the night shift with him. He was a bit dizzy after drinking wine at dinner. He proposed to have tea. I didn't object, but he took me to KTV. He suddenly hugged me and scared me to cry. He begged him to let me go. He finally let me go. He just said he liked me for a long time. Later, he called his wife to join us on duty. He told his wife that it was strange to have a man and a woman on duty together. I thought he was just confused and bored.
The next night, I had a rest in the hotel. He suddenly called and said it was outside my door. After hesitating for a long time, I was worried about being laughed at by my colleagues, so I opened the door. He came in and hugged me and said that he had missed me for a long time, and it was useless for me to break free
I can't stand the mental torture, so I asked for leave to go home early, so I lost sleep for a month. I felt sorry for my husband, but I didn't dare to say it. My husband thought I was under great pressure at work and comforted me every day. Later, he still came to me. I was very angry and said that you should cherish your marriage. He was ridiculous and said that he should be responsible for both his wife and you. Later, he often used the convenience of his work to pester me.
I think he is also kind to me from the bottom of his heart. Plus, he doesn't want to lose this friend, and he is afraid that his colleagues will know it, and he is afraid that his husband will know it. He is praying every day that there will be no more problems. He is highly nervous, and he is suffering, and he has a heart to die.
Later, his wife came out of the wall very quickly, and he almost collapsed. He insisted that it was retribution. I sympathize with him and often chat with him. He said that he wanted to divorce and wanted to be with me. I tried to persuade him to cherish his reputation. It was very important. When he was in pain, I always comforted him on call. He loved me more and more. I found that I also fell in love with him and was used to sneaking with him. I just felt guilty to my husband and was under great pressure.
He and his wife were also persuaded by me to get along, but I found that he was alienated from me, and the gap in my heart was still a little painful. I knew that as long as I was a lover, there would always be more pain and less happiness. I think I should quit. I took the initiative to break up n times, but he didn't agree. He said that he made it with his wife and was always sincere to me. He only loved me in his life. If he lost me, his life would be over.
I think he can pretend in front of his wife or in front of me. I always feel that he has been married for three times. He is not credible. I want to end it too much. I have had enough mental torture, but he doesn't agree to break up. He says I don't take my feelings seriously. He also says that he can divorce at any time if I want to. I dare not be too tough. I think it is rare for him to be a friend. We can get along both in work and business. He is kind to me. I just want to return to friendship. Once lost, who will clean up the mess? I'm crazy.
(Intern editor: Cai Junyi)