Post Date December, 03 2023
Male, has two apartments, has been married for 22 years, has a daughter, and is currently studying in university.
The cruelest thing in this world is that when our minds are not very mature, we must make choices about certain things, such as marriage.
I remember 22 years ago when I really wanted to enter the marriage hall, both parties were already very unhappy due to different opinions on the wedding. Entering the wedding night with such a mood. It can be imagined what a wedding night it will be.
I also remember shortly after marriage, when there was a slight disagreement, she made me sleep in an outside room or on the sofa. It's very similar to the plot in a feature film.
This situation lasted for a short time, and I happened to have the opportunity to go abroad. Feeling discouraged, I felt that we could leave each other and have no sex. It's okay for me to go abroad. That's it, I went abroad.
People say farewell matches for newlyweds, but every time I return to China for half a month, we can live together without having sex!
When I was abroad, I had a fleeting thought when I saw many unmarried cohabiting couples who were married. But thinking of her and her daughter in China, she has lived without a cohabiting partner for many years. It has also ushered in a bitter "reputation" for me: being stuck in the mud without getting stained. Fortunately, at that time, working abroad could earn countless times more money than working domestically, which slightly compensated for the shortcomings between men and women.
After returning to China, it still remains the same. In order to avoid this awkward relationship between husband and wife, I chose to go to other places to contract factories, projects, and other lifestyles. In this situation, the concept of "keeping oneself clean" that I maintained abroad was broken by me. I have spent different periods with different lovers, married women, unmarried women, divorced singles, full-time housewives, official wives, private business owners, entertainment artists, and so on. The impulse to grab the tail of youth leads to what others see as crazy behavior. I know this is not the life I want. But in the face of my wife, who is unwilling to divorce (being so strong and demanding of face) and has been sexually punishing me for a long time, I feel that I still need to live up to myself. Until now, I still live in such a "turbulent" life.
Revealing these is mainly to explore some life issues, and most importantly, to explore how couples should get along? I hope netizens do not criticize me from a moral perspective. In fact, at our age, both men and women have many issues worth reflecting on. Only by exploring, exchanging, and understanding effectively can we improve the quality of life that we have not had for many years.
(Intern Editor: Lai Jiaxing)
