Post Date December, 03 2023
I was shocked to see that my position in the family changed the next morning after I was laid off. Although I am in a bad mood, I still plan to enjoy the taste of sleeping late. At this time, my wife hurriedly made preparations before leaving the house, and succinctly ordered: "Don't stay in bed. I sent Xingzi to kindergarten at 8:30, and bought some vegetables when I came back. Besides, this house hasn't been cleaned for a long time, so you should clean it at home." I asked incredulously, "You mean me?" My wife's tone was even more surprised: "Who are you, aren't you laid-off?" I fell down.
This is the reality. I have been laid off, and the monthly living expenses I get can't support my family at all. "The economic foundation determines the superstructure". I have also changed from a big man who speaks loudly to a "little man" who depends on his wife to support him. It's not easy for me to find a job again. After many years of being a trade union cadre, I can only say that I can't do it, because I have neither one skill nor the ability to bind the chicken. In the scorching sun for several days, I tried my best to promote myself in large companies and small businesses. I was faced with the same question: "Do you understand computers?" "Do you know English?" "What on earth do you know?" In front of a series of negative answers, for the first time, I had doubts about my life value. With deep disappointment and decadence, he returned home, put on the colorful apron, and prepared dinner in the kitchen for half a day. He had to endure his wife's criticism of "salty" and "light".
When I first married my wife, she was still a young man waiting for work. At that time, I was in high spirits. I had just graduated from the night university and was transferred from the workshop to the trade union as a cadre. I don't have too much hope for a beautiful and gentle wife. As long as I can stay with me and love for life, I will be satisfied. Shortly after marriage, my wife began to go to night school and study accounting. After she got her diploma, she applied everywhere. I think, let her go. Isn't there me at home? My wife found a job in a joint venture company and was promoted to the position of director of accounting department within two years, which impressed me. When I was laid off, my wife was also promoted to deputy manager, and all the housework she could do was suddenly abandoned, leaving early and returning late every day.
The way my wife looked at me made me feel a bit pitiful and more disdainful. In our society, women can't support their families, but can publicize their husbands' abilities; A man can't support his family. What he fears most when he goes out is to be said to rely on his wife to support him. Being unable to earn money means being incompetent. My own outlook on life and values for many years have been shattered in the face of cruel layoffs, and I have lost my focus of life. At the same time, I have to face my wife who has a successful career. Every day, my wife dresses up, dresses appropriately, and walks out the door in the appearance of a strong woman. I can't help but wonder how much more does my wife belong to me? Women are always used to looking up at men. My small size makes my wife unable to face up to my existence. There are so many young, rich, handsome and handsome men than me. I am ashamed of myself. I often get angry uncontrollably. For some trivial matters, my home has been turned into a battlefield by me. The wife confronts with silence. It's really unnecessary to say anything to a weak person.
That day, when I was wandering alone in the street, I suddenly saw my wife coming out of a car. The man who helped her out was a man with outstanding appearance, dignified appearance and suit and shoes. They were very close. In my heart, I knocked over the bottle of five flavors. Although I understand that this may be just a business negotiation or a banquet, I can't stand it. This unexpected scene also made me suddenly understand that all the time, my most fear is that my wife will leave me. In fact, the distance between my wife and I is also getting bigger. I resisted the urge to ask a clear question. After all, it is not easy to build a family, and it is easy to break it up.
Chewing the pain, I reflected bitterly. Thousands of years of traditional morality have stipulated that men are the masters of the world and the family. In front of a successful wife, I lost my mentality, self-confidence, self-esteem and self-respect. As a man, I should be patient, tolerant and learn to restrain myself. When my wife is responsible for creating material wealth for her family, I should understand her more, support her, and strive to keep life calm, natural and relaxed, and get along with her equally. I began to treat life with a positive attitude. Every day, I dressed my daughter beautifully and sent her to school. I carefully cooked the dishes my wife loved according to the recipe. When I could not relieve my inner loss and distress, I forced myself to bury myself in the book and stop "burning". I also bought gifts. I went to see my parents and parents-in-law from time to time. I told them that my wife was busy and missed them very much. I specially asked me to visit them. When I went to my mother-in-law's house that day, my father-in-law had a heart attack and couldn't find a car for a while. I carried my father-in-law on my back and rushed to the hospital. When his wife came from work, his father-in-law had turned the corner. My mother-in-law took my wife's hand and praised my filial piety over and over again. My wife looked at me with tenderness. That night, my wife whispered in my ear that I was a real big husband, tolerant, magnanimous, self-respect and self-love.
Of course, I am not willing to bow down and be a "little man". The distance between my wife and I can only be narrowed, not widened. I keep trying to find a suitable job. Finally, I became a life insurance salesman. Over the years, I have accumulated a lot of experience in guessing others' psychology and persuading others. In the first month, my work achievements impressed my peers.
After a year of unemployment and returning to work, I feel great. We all have our own advantages. As long as we don't look down on ourselves, no one in the world can look down on you. Life is like a mountain road, with peaks and valleys, but the so-called peaks and turns are often among them.
