My husband refused to have sex with me on the wedding night because of his ugly appearance

I am a woman who is only 1.5 meters tall. The flaw in appearance is destined to always focus on others with envious eyes, and always lower their heads and dare not look at each other in the face of the boy they like.

I am helpless about my appearance. If I have inherited my parents, I have nothing to say, but unfortunately, when I stand with them, no one will believe that I am their daughter. It seems that I have inherited all their shortcomings.

Perhaps these negative influences have led to my introverted personality and unwillingness to socialize with strangers. At the age of 20, I immigrated overseas with my parents and embarked on the path of blind dates.

As a student in college, I have to submit to my mother's arranged blind dates every weekend. I think it's not just my lack of confidence, but even my mother thinks I'm terrible. Otherwise, why would I keep introducing someone to me so early? I'm afraid others wouldn't know that my daughter won't get married.

For this reason, I often have arguments with my mother, saying 'If I really can't get married, I won't get married', which ultimately angered my mother half to death. People often say that they need to control their own lives, but me? As the only daughter in my family, I seem to have lost all the freedom of self choice and feel that happiness is far away from me.

Having gone through multiple blind dates, they all ended in failure. At the age of 22, my mother introduced me to a boy who was one year older than me through relatives in China. He looks good, stands 175 meters tall, has ideals, but his family is very poor. The first condition for a mother to choose a son-in-law is that the other party is willing to marry, because I am the only daughter in the family and must inherit the family line.

The mother said to the boy that she is willing to give us one million yuan so that we can start a small business as soon as we get married. The boy agreed, and soon after that, I returned home to apply for a marriage certificate and invited many relatives and friends to dinner.

On the night of his wedding, he didn't touch me, but got drunk and kept asking me if I believed he could stand out and if he was a little white faced. I can see that he is very unhappy about borrowing alcohol to relieve his worries. Faced with such a situation, I also feel sad. Is this the happiness I want?

After getting married, we always treated each other with courtesy and lived in the same room as my parents. He is a hardworking man and also very ambitious. As for the attitude towards me, I think it's family affection or the unpleasant point is trading. He instinctively has a bit of rejection towards me, which can be felt from the fact that he doesn't like to take me out on the street. I admit that I am very ugly. Who would be willing to admit to being his wife when walking with such a woman who is shorter in height and has an irregular appearance?

I don't blame him. Judging people based on their appearance is a normal human psychology. I thought we could live a simple life like this, but after three years of marriage, our marriage was in crisis due to another woman.

After a few years of hard work, we have transformed from a small factory into a very large-scale company. He is no longer the poor boy who started with us back then, and he is even more indifferent to me. There are always many excuses for not coming home at night due to work.

We have a son who looks like him. Every time our family of three leaves, someone looks at us with strange eyes. Even some people misunderstood me as their nanny, and he didn't explain but smiled, which made me very uncomfortable and insecure.

Since I met that woman, his attitude towards me has become even more indifferent, sometimes joking that the child is not as good as me. My parents are both good looking, so why don't I inherit them. I never care about his sarcasm because I am well aware that I don't have the capital. If it weren't for some money at home, I don't think he would have been a burden on our family.

One day, he suddenly asked me what would happen if he had a woman he loved? I was silent, but I knew I just didn't want to expose it. I didn't want a divorce. The more I avoided this issue, the more he dug it out for me to know and honestly told me that he didn't love me. My appearance made him ashamed to introduce himself to his family and friends.

I cried sadly. I said not to divorce, my mother would be sad. Anyway, my parents treated him well. He said he repaid me one million yuan, not owed me anything, let me give him freedom, and said that the child would be raised by me. Foolish as I am, I still hold a grateful heart and feel that he has a good conscience. I know that I am the only daughter in the family, so I gave the child to me and repaid the money his parents gave him back then.

Later, I learned from my friend that it wasn't like that. He fell in love with another woman, not only that, but also with their own child. It was the woman who demanded a divorce from him and refused to let him recognize her son. I hate him, I refuse to divorce, I want to live like this even if I don't have feelings, I don't want to fulfill them.

I thought my parents could hold him down, but everything is different now. He used the one million we gave him to double his value several times. He is no longer the good son-in-law who listens to his parents, but instead speaks to us with great wealth and wealth. I refuse to divorce, so he simply refuses to go home. Several times, I held the child in my arms and went to see him, but he mercilessly drove us away, even if the child fell ill and still ignored us.

My marriage failed completely due to my appearance. How should the path between me and my child continue? I don't want my child to grow up in a single parent family. A friend once said to me: Marriage is not a business, we cannot exchange material possessions for happiness.

(Intern Editor: Lai Jiaxing)