Post Date December, 03 2023
Years later, when I recall Lingzi's back when she left, I can't help feeling a little frightened. A woman can only give up a marriage that has been together for ten years if she loves to what extent.
The day Lingzi found out that I was cheating, the weather was very clear and there was no sign. She became like a crazy lion, tracking me and checking my mobile phone. My tone was a little impatient, and she cried and made noise. I want to leave this woman more and more. A woman who does nothing at home all day. Since Lingzi was pregnant with a child, she resigned from her job. After seven years, she did not go to work again.
The pressure of family economy is on me alone. She doesn't understand how difficult it is to have a man outside. When I get home, I often hear the children clamoring to go to the zoo, and listen to her nagging every once in a while. Money is spent here and money is spent there.
I am fed up with such a life. I bite my teeth and try my best to climb up. Finally, I succeed. At the same time, I was also justified in cheating. For me, home is a shackle, a cage, and a place where I feel suffocated and depressed.
Finally, when the marriage was facing collapse, she left. The night was not clear enough for me to see how painful and sad she was. She said that when I go out for a year, you and her should try first. If you can get along well, you will have a good life in the future. If the child wants to go to school, you will take it with you first. Her retrogression surprised me a little, but also relieved me.
Xiaotian and I are so brazenly together. The day she moved to my house, her son hid in the room and cried loudly. She walked in, touched his head, comforted him, and would take good care of him in the future. He also gave him the gift he bought. That is a model plane, which is my son's favorite gift. However, to my disappointment, my son didn't take her heart and threw the gift on the ground.
I couldn't help yelling at him, and he cried even harder. Xiaotian smiled at me awkwardly and said that he was only a child. I mistook Xiaotian's forbearance for her tolerance and generosity.
Unexpectedly, when I came home one day, I heard her arguing with her son. My son cried and shouted to find me. Xiaotian's sharp scolding came into her ear: You think your father will love you, you bastard, your mother doesn't want you anymore. What are you still doing with your father? When I pushed the door and entered, I saw Xiaotian always pinching my son's arm. It made my heart tremble and I held my son tightly in my arms.
Is this her true face? Why did she suddenly become so terrible. I suddenly began to miss the warm and peaceful home before. That night, I had a big fight with Xiaotian. She screamed hysterically. He is not my son. Why should I keep him? I will serve you and him. What am I going to do? I'm fed up with these days.
The sweet days are so short. I broke up with Xiaotian less than half a year after our trial marriage. After she left, I had to take care of my son alone. When a person comes to face the empty but strange life, I cry bitterly.
I have to take care of children and work at the same time. The unprecedented sense of exhaustion finally made me have to admit how tired Lingzi was once at home. Take care of my family in an orderly way, take care of my children in a healthy way, and make my life enjoyable. There are so many shadows of Lingzi in this family. I am annoyed. I reflect that I am not a good husband, let alone a good father.
(Intern editor: Cai Junyi)
