We've been married for a year, but I'm still a virgin. "He never pays attention to me. I try to talk to him, joke, cook, wash, and clean, but I still can't get the positive look he gives me.". For a year now, he doesn't even know if I have double eyelids or single eyelids, and our relationship has been going downhill compared to before.
Increasingly, I find that our personalities differ too much. "I chose to tolerate and resolve grievances through other methods, while he chose to endure but accumulate grievances, so that we spoke less and less.". So I found out that our marriage, which is inherently unstable, is slowly approaching collapse due to lack of good communication.
I discussed divorce with my parents, but my mother strongly opposed it. "And I'm reluctant to split up my divorce property and compensate for it, because almost all the big items in my new house are bought by our family.".
"Now we are facing the problem of having children, and our parents have never known about our lack of marital life.". So recently his parents came home to advise him. I think he still feels the intentions of his parents, and his attitude towards me has also changed, and he will take the initiative to speak to me.
"We have had intimate contact, but we have not had substantive sexual contact, using our own hands or mine to solve it. I think that should be based solely on sex.".
Now I'm thinking: Should I have his children? Is it right to be a child for not paying attention to my life?
I still want a divorce, and I can fully support myself. "But my mother wants me to have a child. She said that even if I have a child after divorce, I won't be alone. However, children are not all crystallization of love. How can a child born without love but with tasks be happy?".
(Intern Editor: Cai Junyi)