Post Date December, 03 2023
I'm getting married soon, and in October this year, I'm not unhappy, but The story begins when I was twenty. On a seven day holiday, my family had relatives, and I had a hard time figuring out that they were my uncle's family. Uncle Tang's son, who is also my cousin, is one and a half years older than me. The first time I saw him, I thought I liked him. "That seven days, my boyfriend was also here with me, because everyone was about the same age, so we had a good time.". After the holiday, my cousin and I returned home. I only left a QQ number for my cousin, and I didn't have much contact.
After more than two years in this way, my boyfriend and I have always been very close, and I occasionally chat with my cousin online. During the Chinese New Year in 2004, he called me to pay New Year's greetings. We chatted for a while. I knew that his birthday was approaching, so I suddenly decided to go to his city to find him and spend time with him. "I don't know what I thought then, and when I decided, I immediately went to buy the ticket.". Actually, I am usually a very procrastinating person. "I didn't tell my family or my boyfriend, so I just told one of my close friends to meet my online friends and ask them to explain their lies for me, so I went.". On the way there, I made it clear that I treated him like a man and a woman, and I never considered him a cousin. "We played together and went to a bar. He had a drink. At night, everything happened naturally.". The next day, I was so embarrassed that he didn't say anything. He just sent me to the station and asked me to be careful on the way home and tell him. I left feeling so sad in my heart. I don't know what this is, why he treated me like that, whether he was really drunk or liked me.
I met my boyfriend when I went home. Do you know what the first sentence he said to me was? He said, "There are chicken wings in the refrigerator, and there are puffs in the cabinet that I bought from a Japanese store. They are all for you." Although it is very common, I feel very guilty. It happened that the turtle my mother had kept for a long time disappeared that day. I took the opportunity to cry a lot and left a message to my cousin online saying I wanted to disconnect. "As a result, he immediately called me and said, 'He also likes me and wants to be with me.'". I said, "I don't like you.". He said, "I love you.". I said, "I love you too.". In this way, we have been in contact for two years.
One day, my boyfriend discovered our chat record, and he couldn't bear such a thing and told my parents. This matter was known to both families. This is a great blow to everyone. They scold us, saying that we are the stupidest people in the world, saying that our cousin is an uneducated beast, saying that he is not a human being, even our own sister, and saying that I was fooled and played with. Uncle Tang said he had no face coming back to our house.
"We are both wrong and have done something shameful, but we truly love each other sincerely.". "He hasn't had a girlfriend in two years, and as long as we have time, we meet almost once or twice a month. Either he comes to me or I go to him.". Moreover, when I met my cousin, I was already 20 years old, and I couldn't even talk about the feelings and feelings between brother and sister, just the feelings of a man. We very much hope that our family can accept us and keep us together, but it never works. "I'm lucky to be a girl, but he's the only son who wants to continue his family's incense.". I want to have a child for him, but it's just a beautiful and cruel fantasy.
Finally, my boyfriend forgave me and I was about to get married. I decided to break up with my cousin before marriage, but every time we said goodbye, we cried together and neither of us would hang up first. I have tried many times but failed. I have thought that I cannot live without my boyfriend, and I cannot be happy without him.
I think this is really the most private scandal of my life. Anyone's feelings can be expressed, and they are more glorious than our feelings. I am well aware that such a relationship must be terminated early. It's just so difficult to really take this step now.
(Intern Editor: Cai Junyi)
