I am unable to have children, and my husband has adopted an abandoned child to comfort me. The truth is revealed that the child is actually the illegitimate child of my husband

I once had an unforgettable love journey, and at that time, I was still studying. Young and immature, my boyfriend and I stole forbidden fruits because we didn't understand safety measures, and I became pregnant. That year I was only in my sophomore year, and because I felt ashamed, I dared not tell my parents. My boyfriend accompanied me to secretly knock off the child, but after giving birth, I didn't rest well, which marked the root of the illness. It's heartbreaking that we didn't come to the end and went our separate ways after graduation.

At work, I met my current husband. The two of them had a good conversation and confirmed their relationship. He has also had emotional experiences before, and we shared our feelings with each other, feeling very relaxed. I told him that I have had an abortion before, and I don't want to argue with him after getting married because of this kind of thing. My husband said he doesn't care, who hasn't passed by. I felt very heartwarming when he said this. After talking for a while, we got married.

After marriage, we worked hard for this family and saved some money to start a business, opening a fast food restaurant. Business is not bad, and my husband signed up for a training class to learn management knowledge in order to manage the restaurant well. After several years of hard work, our restaurant has continuously expanded in scale and opened branches. My husband and I think it's time to have a baby. The current conditions are enough to provide the baby with good living conditions. But our plan fell through because my first abortion caused me to have a habitual miscarriage, and I had three consecutive pregnancies and all of them passed away.

Abortion has a great impact on my body, and I am in unbearable pain. The doctor told me that if I have a child, it is very likely that my life will be in danger. I cried and felt very sorry for my husband. Instead, he comforted me and said, "It's okay, you still have me. As a woman, I feel very indebted to him for not being able to have children for him. I am very considerate of him in life and never give him any trouble. But every time I go out to play, my husband sees other people's children wandering, which makes me feel uncomfortable. I suggested adopting a child, and he looked at me incredulously.

Six months later, he returned with a three month old baby. The baby was very cute and the way he laughed made my heart melt. After the child arrived, the husband's face continued to smile, treating the baby as if it were his own. When the child was one year old, he celebrated his birthday and invited many friends to play. Some friends were not sure about the details and praised the child for not following me at all. Their eyebrows and nose looked like my husband's. I didn't pay much attention to what she said, but the awkward expression on my husband's face gave me suspicions.

There will always be a day when lies are self defeating. I can hear the content of his conversation with his mother-in-law at home clearly that day. My husband admitted to his mother-in-law that the child was his own, because he had cheated in his heart. He apologized to me, but he wanted his own child and hoped that his mother-in-law would keep it a secret for him. I'm dumbfounded, how could you deceive me like that. The image of a good husband in front of me, but hanging out with other women outside, and even bringing back an illegitimate child to be raised by me as my own son?

I completely cannot accept the impact of this sudden invasion. I didn't confess, I feel so ashamed. Now he is still so close to the child. When I see that child, I think of him rolling sheets with other women. What should I do? What am I going to do?