Post Date December, 02 2023
My husband is eight years older than me. When I first met him that year, my heart couldn't help but be moved. He is 1 in height. At 80 meters, the body is particularly symmetrical, and walking is very light and agile, with an indescribable elegance and nobility. At that time, I thought: If I could marry this gentleman in this life, I would be satisfied! And he seems to be fascinated by my purity, beauty, and gentleness. Three years later, we fulfilled our wish and walked hand in hand into the palace of marriage.
In the first two years after marriage, I felt very happy. He is the kind of man who is very attentive and elegant. For example, in winter, I am particularly prone to catching a cold, so he washes my feet with hot water every night. Watching him gently and meticulously rubbing my feet, I was particularly moved. In marital life, he is also extremely gentle, afraid of hurting me... The feeling of being loved by others is really beautiful, and I think this may be the most magical and happy feeling of being a woman.
But in the third year after marriage, my feelings began to change. This is not that our love has faded, but that I, a petite woman, have wild dreams.
When he looks at me with a focused and obsessed gaze, like appreciating a beloved artwork, I wish his gaze were more obsessed and wild, because I am a woman rather than a artwork; When he caresses me cautiously, I hope he can show me his passion and strength as a man. On many nights of insomnia and loss, I advised myself that my husband is a model university lecturer, and I cannot hope that he is like a fierce farmer and an uncivilized savage. I should learn to treat my sexual life with my husband as an ancient poem, a piece of soothing music, a glass of aged wine, and slowly savor it. But every time my orgasm was about to come and he was still slow and organized, I became very impatient and even wanted to get angry with him, but I always suppressed it.
I dress up meticulously every day. Women are the ones who please themselves, and I hope that when they see my charming appearance, they will impulsively hug me around the living room, hug me tightly, or throw me onto the bed, expressing their emotions and needs without emotion. I yearn for the feeling of being incisive and heartfelt, but he still maintains the tenderness and delicacy of his newlyweds.
I thought about telling him everything, but I couldn't speak up. Because I know he really likes my gentleness and cleverness. In his mind, I am a very emotional and ladylike wife. How can such a wife talk face-to-face with her husband about the rhythm of sex? How can we demand intensity and fanaticism? But if I keep silent, I feel very disappointed and dissatisfied. Over time, I am worried that the quality of our marriage will decline, and perhaps one day our love will also fade.
One Sunday morning, we woke up and lay in bed chatting. I suddenly felt blessed to my heart and told him that I had a dream. I dreamt that we were running on an empty beach, and he suddenly pushed me onto the beach, impatiently taking off my clothes... The waves washed over us from time to time, and his fierce movements made me feel more excited and comfortable than ever before. He was extremely impulsive upon hearing this, and next, I truly experienced the joyful and joyful feeling of my virtual presence in a dream.
Since then, he seems to have begun to value sexual skills. We often change various forms, and his gentle yet firm movements satisfy me very much. I was amazed by his changes, But he said: Thank you very much. When you told me about your dreams that day, I knew you were not just talking about dreams, but giving me some kind of inspiration. If you were to directly and simply say that you were not satisfied with sex, I might not believe it, and I might also lose interest and confidence in it. After listening to your dream, I went to consult a sexologist specifically, who said that most women, after three or four years of marriage, will have sexual experience With new demands, they may even have some fantasies of being raped Listening to him say that, my face involuntarily turned red because I had such fantasies before. Don't be shy, sex experts say that this kind of fantasy is not that women really want to be raped, they just want to feel some change and intensity during sexual life. Moreover, it's not the kind of negative and passive women who harbor this secret fantasy
Don't continue, "I covered his mouth and said. It's not what you think, "he said." Most of the people who dream savagely are women who are proactive, creative, and independent. "I breathed a long sigh of relief, I thought my thoughts were abnormal! "" So we need to communicate more in the future. Being alone in our minds is not only useless, but also causes heavy psychological pressure on ourselves. "I took his words and said," And we also need to pay attention to the way and skills of communication. If we don't manage it well, it can cause psychological pressure or even psychological obstacles to both parties
Our lives have returned to the sweet and happy moments of our newlyweds, and amidst these sweet and happy moments, they still exude a mature charm. My girlfriends all say that I feel like a different person. "Zijuan, what kind of stunt are you using? You see, you're all powerful now! I told them my secret to my girlhood, and they sighed and said," We have similar ideas, but we never have the courage to say it. "" How would they know without saying it? They're not worms in our stomachs, "I joked. But we seem to have a charming wife, let him know that we have that kind of idea. Do you think he has any thoughts about us? "Asked a girlfriend. I relayed my husband's words to her and she couldn't help but smile.
(Intern Editor: Cai Junyi)
